If you have considered suicide…

Suicide is an extremely heavy burden to carry. If you have considered suicide… then I’m going to get to the point. Don’t you do it. Yes, I’m talking to you!

I’m writing to you to tell you not to leave us. Whether you choose to believe this or not, know that we need you right here with us. There are people around you who need your presence, more than you know. You are a precious being. You are priceless, and your existence can bring about a great change. If you had any idea how powerful you really are, and how your presence can bring goodness to the world – you would think again.

I’m asking you to please rethink this.

I write this boldly because I have been where you are – in a place where I just wanted my life to end. Dealing with a chronic illness was eating me alive physically, mentally and emotionally. I couldn’t cope anymore. I was in my twenties and the concept of living the rest of my life with a chronic illness made me want to give up.

So what changed?

I had a moment when I prayed to God and asked him to come collect me since I was fully aware that he wouldn’t be okay with suicide. Then I got a response from him. The response was very clear that I needed to encourage people and help them to see the light. He instructed me to help people who have been suffering the same way as I have, but didn’t know him. God came to me with a purpose and an assignment. One that was so important, that I knew I couldn’t take it nonchalantly and thus – Pain Warrior Code was born. That was back in 2015.

Some people don’t believe in God and that’s their choice. Do not take this as me “shoving my faith down your throat”, but simply me sharing the truth of what turned the darkest moment I’ve ever experienced – into something so profound; giving me strength to keep pushing on.

So what are you going to do?

Please stick around. Life does guarantee hardships – yes. We all will experience them for sure. But life also guarantees something else…change! Things can turn around for you, but we’re gonna need to you stay with us so you can see the change manifest.

You’re going to need additional support and somebody to talk to. Please tell somebody how you have been feeling – do not suffer in silence. Please do not submit to the lie that tells you that you will burden somebody if you let them know how you feel. It would probably be more burdensome if they lost you & found out that you suffered in silence.

I can recommend different charities and organisations that you can call or contact for additional support. These organisations specifically help people with suicide;

UK Suicide Organisations

Samaritans: Website: https://www.samaritans.org Contact number: 116 123

HopeLine UK: Website: http://www.papyrus-uk.org/ Contact Number: 0800 068 4141

Premier LifeLine: Website: http://www.premier.org.uk/lifeline Contact: 0300 111 0101 

US Suicide Organisations

Suicide Prevention Life Line: Website: https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/talk-to-someone-now/ Contact Number: 1-800-273-8255

Crisis Text Line: Website: https://www.crisistextline.org Contact: send an sms to 741741

If you have struggled with thoughts of suicide due to dealing with a chronic illness or chronic pain, then I encourage you to read my posts 5 tips for when you feel overwhelmed with pain and To Those Who Feel Like Giving Up… Both posts have encouraged many people and I’ve received a lot of positive feedback about them.

Also, why not consider this?…

If you are willing to give something new a try – why not give God a try?

Hear me out…why not try saying a prayer and invite him to come into your life and help you out? Be real with him. He knows you and can handle your feelings. Then after that – why not consider a church community to join, where you can be around people who will support and encourage you. Take some time to find a church that works for you though – (just like in anything) there can be some places that are a bit off-key. But there are many churches that aren’t, that are filled with lovely people who will become like family to you!

My Pastor (Michael White) once said something that I will say to you – give God 6 months of your life. That means 6 months of praying (which is simply engaging in conversation) and going to church (or listening to online services since COVID has the world distancing). If you haven’t seen or heard anything from God, if your life hasn’t even changed in the slightest and you decide that you’re done with that lifestyle – then fair enough and all the best to you. But, give God a chance to show and prove. People always question why God doesn’t stop things from happening, but don’t really understand that God is not forceful; we all have free will. This means that we have to invite and ask God into our lives – giving him permission. It’s like if somebody broke into your house, it would be a crime because they weren’t invited into your home. That’s trespassing. It’s the same principle with God.

Once again, I reemphasise – I am recommending this because being a follower of Christ and having a relationship with God (which is very different from just being religious), has helped me through my darkest times. I am simply recommending what worked for me.

That being said, if you decide that is not for you – no harm no foul. We still need you here though, so don’t you go anywhere!

Just know this…

You stumbled across this post for such a time as this. This was meant to be. You still have a purpose and you are filled with greatness. You might not realise your potential (yet!), but it’s never too late to realise it.

For those of you who may be questioning “what if things become worse?”, my question for you is what if they don’t? Can you imagine what goodness you might miss out on?

Stay with us.

If this has been any help to you at all, please comment below and let me know your thoughts. Alternatively, feel free to email me at painwarriorcode@gmail.com if you would rather communicate discreetly. There is a whole community of us Pain Warriors always waiting to welcome you into our family.

Also, please share this post with any other people who you know that might need to read this. We have to look our for each other and support one another in our community. Each one reach one!

Until next time,

Tasha Marie